As many of you already know, I'm in the process of opening a new shop in Friday Harbor. I've been giving myself lots of space and time to allow it to come together in a way that doesn't feel rushed or stressful. That said, I think I've wandered into a bit of a dead end. There are still so many things to do, namely pricing, inventory and organization...but lately, every time I walk through the door I freeze! Even though I have my to do list in hand, I still can't seem to take the last few steps to actually OPEN. 

Does this every happen to you, where you go all in on something only to stall out at the last minute?? I can't seem to make sense of my own behavior....unless...I hate to, even say it....but I think part of me wants to chicken out!  Maybe at times, ALL of me wants to chicken out! I't really feels terrible to even say it, I am an Aries after all, courage is my brand!  What I'm doing is scary, for me anyway. I have always done things as on-my-own as possible, and now I've created a situation that's impossible to operate on my own. The plan is to do both my Roche Harbor booth AND the shop, and I can't be in two places at once, which means I can't pull this off by myself and that makes me deeply uncomfortable. 

Now that I've named it, I actually recognize this pattern. I've done this before, chickened out at the last minute… tried to cut and run, escape to another country, fake my own death…:)
One memory jumps to mind, the first time I moved to Mexico. I was 18 and going to live with a family in Veracruz whom I'd never met. I barely spoke any spanish and I knew they didn't speak a word of english. Although I had already graduated high school, I knew I would have to attend school with the other kids in the family... I almost bailed. I really, really did not want to go up until last minute. In fact I drafted a letter letting them know I wasn't coming. But in the end, even though I was terrified, I did it. And it's no exaggeration to say that it is one of the BEST things I have ever done. I literally had the time of my life and learned Spanish, both of which have nurtured me in ways I could never have imagined at the time.

So anyway.... It's not to say that there are not moments where I feel like I am having so much fun...setting up, opening all the boxes of pretty things, creating a space that is entirely mine and filled with the things that I like. Of course I'm excited! But I am also nervous, uncomfortable, doubtful, and wavering. I have the highest hopes, but I don't know how this will go, and I guess I just wanted to be honest about that. 

Scroll down and take a look at the progress so far. You will see that the store is really almost ready. She is ready! It's just me that's not quite there yet...soon...but not yet!

Once the walls were done being resurfaced, assembling all the shelving came next.

I've had to accept that there are some things I can't change right now...like the floor and the ceiling! Those will just have to wait...

This will be the check out stand, again not ideal, but it's what I have! If it looks familiar, it's because twin lives out at my Roche Harbor booth.

Trying to figure out where the dressing room would go was something that puzzled me for weeks! In the end, this seemed like the only logical spot.

By far, putting things on the shelves has been the most fun part! 

I just love these cement tiles I got for displays...mmm... I wish I could do the whole floor with these! 

The store is actually pretty small and has almost no storage space, so I created a partition to create some with this shelf by hanging ivory colored burlap on the back....honestly, it turned out a lot better than I thought it would!

As you can see, it's starting to take shape. The next big task is pricing everything and then bringing in the jewelry:)

March 19, 2025 — Erin Heydenreich

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